As you lie next to me snuggled in my arms, I caress your tender tiny hands and feel a little sentimental. It seems like yesterday when you entered into our lives and brightened it up with your presence. Today, you have completed 10 months and one day you will turn a year old, you will start school, finish graduation, begin a job, get married and have kids. Time flies so fast and I can only wish to stop every passing minute of my life right here so as to live this phase a little longer with you.
Today, as I look at you, I suddenly feel a surge of so many things that I want to say to you; and to start with – I love you with all my heart! Raising you is the most meaningful part of my existence. I am not just raising a girl or a daughter; I am raising someone’s future friend, someone’s neighbor, someone’s colleague, someone’s wife, someone’s mother, someone’s daughter-in-law and someone’s grandmother too. Sounds like a BIG responsibility isn’t it? Well it is and I will try to teach you all that I have learned in life through my education and experiences. Rest, I want you to be yourself and I am sure, you will turn out into a beautiful person one day.
My darling, I always want to see you happy. It doesn’t matter where you find your happiness, what truly matter is, to know what brings joy to your heart. In this world, many of us come and go without even realizing where our happiness lies; I hope you are able to find yours.
Travel around the world, you will learn life’s best lessons along the journey. I wish for you to be a voracious reader; you will find all of life’s answers hidden inside the books. Learn to dance in the rain and enjoy small blessings. Always remember that not all days will be bright and happy; but be prepared to enjoy the storm with a smile on your face.
Fall in love; there is nothing as beautiful as loving someone with all your heart. Don’t be afraid of heartbreaks as they are meant to transform the ‘fragile’ you into a totally new person. Remember one thing – you will find all sorts of boys as you grow. Stay away from the ones who only talk about your physical appearance. They will not be worthy of your attention at all. Beware of the pretentious boys who will talk all filmy stuff to prove their love for you. Trust me my doll; they will be the ones to change their course during some crisis. There will come a time in your life when you will find someone who might not know the jazzy ways to win your heart or someone who might never propose to you bending on his knees but he will be the one who will show love in small things and will never leave you when you need him. Look out for such kind of love, for only this shall be true love. I hope you find your true love like I have found mine.
Do not ever be afraid of anyone or anything. Be fearless. Be independent. Always remember that you do not belong to a place or people that discriminates something, or anything. Don’t be afraid of being judged and never compromise or settle for anything less than you deserve; you deserve true happiness. Be careful while making promises for it takes a great deal to keep them. It’s not a cake walk to honor your words and I have seen many people failing in this.
My sweetheart, I don’t want you to be afraid of making mistakes; we as humans are bound to do blunders. But don’t ever repeat any mistake for it will then be called a choice. I have also made many mistakes in life but important is to learn from them. Remember a thumb rule I strictly abide by – don’t trust someone who has broken your trust once. Don’t ever give anyone a second chance to hurt you.
Today, I want to tell you that I will never pressurize you to be what I want you to be; I would always accept your individuality. Wear makeup but don’t forget that honest eyes without mascara are better than the decked eyes that tell lies. You will come across all kinds of people in this journey; I hope you find good friends. One important thing for me to tell you is that nothing is constant in this changing world; relationships also change. Your best friend from school might not turn out to be a life time friend. Don’t be disheartened. Learn to let go and move on.
Make lot of memories and its ok to sometimes break the rules. Be an open minded girl, try new things. Remember one thing – the more avaricious you become, the farther you drift from your true self. Stay grounded. Connect with the nature. Own a pet someday and you will find a true friend in it.
It’s good to be expressive. Express love. Express your emotions. There’s nothing wrong in being emotional. And whenever you are in doubt, follow your heart. This is a debatable approach though and might fail in pragmatic measures, but at the end of the day, it will lead you to a peaceful slumber.
I hope you learn to enjoy silence as well. I pray that the cacophony of big cities and changing times do not take away the innocence and simplicity of my little girl. I will always be around to protect you, but you should also know what it is to fall and fail. One thing that I have understood is that every life has its own share of pains; I hope you learn to deal with yours. Win over your fears, win over your weaknesses. Dream a lot; and dream big. Trust me, dreams do come true.
I don’t know what you will shape up into; I don’t know what tomorrow holds for you. All I know is that I will never be tired of taking care of you. It’s an honor to be a mother and I am enjoying every bit of it. Whenever you say ‘Ma.. Ma’ it melts my heart and all I am left to say is… for you a thousand times over!
Sleep well Bacchha!